I truly believe that when a person puts out positive energy (or coupons) into the universe, they receive it back. My friend Julie calls me the coupon fairy b/c I often leave coupons that I don't need on the shelves at the store - and usually I am given a coupon during that same shopping trip by someone else. I know - totally weird. It happened again this past Thursday. I left a few coupons in the cereal isle, and at the end of my shopping trip, a total stranger came literally running after me to give me an EIGHT dollar off coupon!! The store was packed with people and he chose me to give it to - he even called out to me a few times - but I don't usually turn around when I hear someone call out "Miss!!" - finally I turn around and he's handing me this coupon!! He was out of breath from chasing me - he told me he was trying to get my attention! I was so excited that he gave it to me - I started telling him how I love coupons - but he just gave me the coupon and walked away. This is not the first time a total stranger has come over to me and given me a coupon. :)
It's been almost 5 weeks since my surgery. The recovery is coming along. It's been very difficult (I'm sure most of you know) to lay low and let others help. I've had such a great support system. My husband has been amazing and patient with me. My kids have been good and mostly patient. My friends have been here for me more than I can even say. When I found out right before the surgery that the recovery would be 4-6 weeks I was shocked. Now, I understand. I still need to take it easy....wow - is that ever difficult! Learning to listen to my body has been a new experience for me. I always would ignore my body. Ignore hunger, the need to sleep, pain etc.... Now, I have no choice. I must listen, and I am, even though it's difficult. There are some choices that I have to make now to make life more manageable - it won't be easy - but, once it's done, life will be a bit easier. Thanks for reading - hopefully I will be able to keep up my blog!
It's been 3 months exactly since I have last posted. I just happened to open my page today, and thought it was a bit of an omen to see that it was 3 months to the day since I had last written. I have written a hundred posts in my head in the last 3 months. Have I been too busy to write? I don't know if that's a good enough reason. I know plenty of other busy women who find the time to keep up their blogs. Whatever. I had big plans for my blog, probably like many other people, to have a ton of followers and even make some money off of it. Well, at least its cathartic for me. Speaking of cathartic, I will have some more time soon to keep up my blog as I will be recovering from surgery. Scared as hell about the surgery, but looking forward to lots of resting at home. For a couple of weeks, I won't have to make dinner, work, do the laundry, or clean. And the best part....strong medication. Take me to my happy place!
I wish a lot of things. Wish I could write a post every day Wish I could take my Mom's cancer away Wish I could be a better wife, mother, daughter, friend Wish I had more hours in the day Wish I had more money so that life could be a bit easier Wish I knew the right things to say Wish I could make everyone happy all the time Wish I had a much cleaner house Wish I knew then what I know now Wish I could take the pain away Wish I knew how to do more on my own Wish I had more inner strength Wish I could help more people more often Wish I knew how to take better care of myself Wish I could say no more often and feel ok with it Wish I had all the answers Wish I could be happy with what I have and not feel the need to wish for more
I have been wanting to post this particular post for a long time. I'm just now finally "stealing" a few minutes of my day to write it. Of course I have written this post a bunch of times in my head! I am constantly blogging in my head. It makes me crazy that I haven't made the time to sit and blog for almost 2 months, but really I have been blogging every day, just in my mind. Oh well, back to what I wanted to write about today. Since this school year started and now that my kids are all in school all day (ALL DAY people!!) I now get the "luxury" to shop by myself. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE IT!! Especially when I'm using coupons, it's best that I'm alone. But, what I noticed when I first walk into the store, and grab a cart, I immediately put my purse inside the front section. Inside the first section is a flap that you put down to put a child in there or you push up to put items inside so that they don't fall out. Here's my point people....I put the flap up! That means that there isn't a child with me. It may sound corny or stupid, but every time I push that flap up I'm reminded that I'm in a different stage in my life. I don't know why, but for some reason, I get a little sad when it happens. OK, I feel a little bit better now that I have blogged about it. But, I would really like to hear from anyone who also feels this way...or am I just crazy? Don't answer that. Feel free to comment.
Time is NOT always on my side!! There are just not enough hours in the day!! Seriously, what is the deal?? I feel like I don't know if I'm coming or going. My whole day is bound by time.... Time to get up Time to get the girls to the bus Time to rush to work Time to run to appointments Time to take my Mom someplace Time to get everything done before the next day Things snowball if I'm running late....I HATE being late! One thing runs into another and I'm racing to catch up! I can't wake up late, then we'll miss the bus, can't miss the bus, then I'll have to drive 2 hours to get there and back and then be SERIOUSLY late for work. If I'm late to work then I'll have to make up the time...from where???? One day last week I didn't HAVE to be anywhere after work...it was a wonderful feeling. The only problem was that I felt lost...what should I do?? I had a few hours today and nothing pressing!! I spent a while trying to figure out if I was forgetting something. I decided to take a long hot shower right in the middle of the day!! Funny though, I couldn't stay too long, I was kinda bored, and the water ran out! All the other times I want to stay in longer I feel guilty that I'm using all the hot water, or someone else is waiting for the shower. I tried to not feel guilty about giving the time to myself and I was starting to feel very proud of myself until I realized later in the day that there were a bunch of things I should have done around the house.... like make enough food for dinner!! Oh well...... Time to start the day again!!
I've had so much to write, but not enough time to write it. I've started about 5 million blog post's in my head...really I have. So, I thought that I would first post an update of sorts. The kids started off school very nicely and they are for the most part, enjoying school. I am thrilled to pieces that they are all settled nicely and enjoying my new schedule. I am so insanely busy all day!! I have always had a busy schedule, but the way my time is used now is so completely different than before. I am working in the morning and then my afternoons are crammed with a gazillion errands and appointments!! My mom had another surgery three weeks ago, and is recovering well...in her own apartment!!!! Although, I need to shop and visit her as often as I can. I sometimes try to run (literally) to the store before work to get an errand accomplished. Many days, like today, I finally arrive home minutes before the kids come home. That means that all the laundry, dishes,etc are all waiting for me when I get home. By the time the kids (or at least some of them) are in bed, I am trying to catch up on the housework. Therefore, when will I ever have time to blog???? Right now I should be doing so many other things, but here I sit blogging with the chaos surrounding me! That is the update in a nutshell....more later.....